I had my second round of chemo yesterday, whilst there I commented to the nurse how scary it is that they are so busy…..her wise words made me smile and proud of the research and hard work of the NHS …..she said it’s not scary, we are busy because we can now treat people at one time we couldn’t, we are diagnosing early so able to treat better, and we are growing older but able to cure more.
So how have I been, actually having chemo is an uncomfortable feeling, lucky I am only there 1hr 30mins, some people there all day, but not painful and the nurses do check that you are okay all the time….. I was sick during last night, not as bad as last time which is great. I had heavy legs again which is a strange sensation to have. Today I have been very tired and fighting nausea. My mood has been quite good though, which has helped. I do think that fact I’ve now lost my hair has helped as not worrying about it. (It was very painful until I had it shaved).
Still feel guilty about things but learning to be kind to me, I can only do so much, I do have chemo brain so if I forget what you say to me, it’s not because I’ve not listened. I spent hours trying to remember what my auntie offered to lens me, when I saw her on Tuesday 😀 it came back to me eventually!! (Frustrating)