Well my 5th chemo has finished – yippee only 1 more to go …. feel like dancing 😇

I have read that the 4/5th chemo can be the hardest ones, you can feel like giving up – I totally get that, although so close to the end, your body is tired. My body ached so much last time and the fatigue was hard, the thought of more chemo sessions even if only 2 left is hard mentally (and yet many people have so many more sessions – not sure how they do it, amazing, you rock). So I fought through those feelings and I won this one 😉 as I only have 1 left now. The reason I made it through was due to a couple of factors ….some very special people in my life rooting for me, making me feel loved and needed, prayers and candles lit, virtual hugs given, and my lost family members showing me love and support ❤ I know some truly amazing people. The other reason were the simple words from my new oncologist “if you want to stop at any point, you can and we will look at other drugs/options” he gave me control back and the confidence to know I can say if not feeling right/panicky.

I was actually called in 15 minutes early, yes you read that right “early” wow, liking this early appointment 9.30am is the way forward 😉. As agreed my chemo, started with “pre meds” these were a piriton type drug and extra steriods, these are to help if it was an allergic reaction last time, I then had a half hour saline flush to allow these to get into my system. They then started the docetaxel but slow for half an hour, and because I had no affects they put it back up to normal rate after this time – yet again the nurses were fab and nothing was an issue. So all went really well, plan will be the same next time – did I mention that will be my last one 😉. 

I am feeling tired and achy already, not looking forward to the next few days but it’s a means to an end, and I am very lucky, I found out so early and have the best ever chance to many more years of causing havoc 😉. I met a lady today having lunch on a bench, I sat with her while Mark collected the car (I was a little breathless). Her 24 year old son has leukaemia and is in hospital due to a chest infection, she has a lot of praise for the staff at the hospital, but she off loaded some niggles, she said it was fate that I sat next to her, how do you watch your child go through that, amazingly we laughed at our experiences and I listened, two stranger’s united due to cancer. I am a better person because of cancer, I have a better understanding of struggling with health issues and all that we go though because of them …. I know I will also be much better at my job when I am well/fit enough to return 🤗🤔