I am sat in the waiting room for my 4th chemo… it’s not so busy today it seems, but they are short staffed as usual so patience will be needed…..i am actually quite calm which has surprised me, I have had my 4 steroids this morning and anti sickness, plus my paracetamol and ibuprofen so fingers crossed dosed up enough😉

Steroids side effects – light headed, irritable, ratty sorry all! Laid in bed last night heavy legs, and joints ached on a plus only on them for 3 days, so half way through. Although not sure if I had audio hallucinations as heard church bells at 4am 😂. Didn’t sleep well, unsure if was steroids or nerves or both.

As I wait the waiting room is filling up around 30 people now, a mix of wigs, beautiful head scarves/hats and bald heads, mainly ladie’s but I believe Thursday is usually for breast cancer and this affects more ladies. Its a cheerful room, lots of chatter and laughter. Although chairs are uncomfortable, I feel for the people who have their chemo and then have to wait 6hrs on them in case of a reaction.

After nearly a 3 hour wait I am hooked up and the cannula didn’t hurt, yippee…..here goes new drug, flush of saline first. All’s good 😀 then with just 15 mins left of treatment I’ve gone really hot, feel sick and a nurse notices asks if I am okay …not really next thing I know I have 4 nurses and a Dr round me, they think I am having an allergic reaction, they stop the chemo and pump me full of anti allergic drugs whilst taking my obs……sleepy drugs, I feel bit better but the need to loo (loose) I am being to think I have a bug. Feel rough I just want to go home…… it’s agreed that I can go home and it’s okay to stop this course of chemo. Oh the relief, the nurse said it’s written all over your face you’ve had enough……we get home at around 4.30 so that’s an 8hr 30min day no wonder I had, had enough.

On the drive home I actually had time to think, I believe it was the steroids as I took some with food as they were hooking me up, they made me feel slightly odd yesterday lunch time, but on the plus side they’ll be giving me anti allergic meds I guess before chemo next time, so I am sure all will be good ….they may also slow the rate it enters the body so instead of 1hrs course it’ll take 2hrs. I felt bad as they so short staffed and I course a kuffle but they were fab……..

I could ask “why me – why nothing straight forward” but that’ll not help, so it’s positive head on, and it’ll be fine next time, as we can prepare 😀